Daisy's Petals

Why is it I only get on her to say how fast time is going and that I’m really busy? It’s true, but also sad that is all I can find to say. I really like my job, but all the weekend work is just getting harder. I still enjoy it, but I worry that I’m missing out on things.

My mom’s health is really in decline. I can see it and I think it will just move faster. We’ve known it’s coming but it puts your own life in perspective. I always thought she worked way too hard and now I wonder if I’m not doing the same thing. But then what can you do? A person has to be able to pay their bills….

I can’t believe how fast January has flown. I’m actually feeling better and I hope it continues. Who knew hormone replacement therapy could be so effective! It has helped my attitude immensely. Work is still work and not as good as I would like, but I’m busy and that gives me hope I’ll keep employed. And I’m thankful to have work. The recession has been as bad here as in other places, but I can still see it with some friends that have lost jobs and I’m trying my best to not have that happen.

I’ve started actually reading books again (digitally) and it’s consuming me. I forgot how much I love to read and I have to make myself stop and do something else.

But what I wanted to say is that life feels good right now. I’m happy.

I’ve had a lovely holiday break which would have been better if I hadn’t had a virus for the past 2 weeks. But I’m glad it’s going away even if I do have to go to work next week. Work! I’m going back to some difficulties that have to be solved so I’m not looking forward to THAT. But work is always like that so I should be used to be for sure.

I did enjoy seeing my granddaughter some over the break. She’s so cute, but so typical a 2 year old. We’ve been so blessed that she arrived in our lives. I need to post a photo soon as she’s just gorgeous (or I could be biased).

I’m so happy for 2013 to arrive. I’m just sitting here waiting for midnight. 2012 kicked my butt and I’m hopeful that 2013 will be kinder. There were definitely good things in 2012. Playing with my grand daughter, a better relationship with my husband, but there was a lot of yuck and I’m ready for that to be behind me. I know that the stroke of midnight won’t magically change things and guarantee a good year, but I’m ready to try.

Time to start 2 lovely weeks of vacation. Several days courtesy of working for a school and a few more just for myself! This is about the time last year that things started falling apart so I’m hopeful that it’s been wrapped up with the Mayans “April Fools” Day and life will proceed quietly. I long for quietly these days.

Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas!

Are you ready for Christmas? I just about am since one half of the family is celebrating this SUNDAY! Isn’t that a bit crazy? But I decided it will be nice to not have things crowded all together.

My granddaughter got to spend the weekend with us and it was fun. My husband was a bit on edge by the end because a 2 year old is always on the move! But she’s pretty typical and so much fun that I didn’t mind the mini-outbursts she had when not getting her way. They were few and she’s still so darn cute that they just don’t bother me. We’ll see how that changes if they continue as she gets older.

She has such a great personality and a laugh that you can’t help but love. We are so blessed she came to our lives.

to get me to get back on the wagon for exercising and losing weight. I hate to admit it, but my pants split! NOW it was at a seam and in a weird place, but I know I’ve gained a few pounds so I’m taking it as a sign!

This is my birthday month and it’s a “landmark” birthday. Given the year that it has been I shouldn’t be surprised at the way it’s all going. Typically my girlfriends and I have celebrated everyone’s 50th (Wow! 50! Old!) birthday with a great destination party. Unfortunately two of the friends have had some downturns and can’t afford that. Ok…I’m not selfish (for the most part) but then my mom planned a party for me and they can’t come to that either due to prior committments and my mom lives out of town and she is having it at her house due to her health. Add to the month that it’s crazy at work….I have 14 events by the time November 5 rolls around and with 14 events and only 32 days to work them you can see where I’m using all my skills and talents to make it look effortless (which, as an aside, I get tired of doing because then people think it IS effortless which it is not).

Fine. I’ve never cared for my birthday anyway!

What a weird year this has been so far.

August gave me a break…but September has brought the loss of a cousin to a stroke. She was just 55. She had a difficult life starting with being born with a heart defect, so perhaps 55 was a blessing to her. All in the perspective.

Isn’t it supposed to ever get easier? I’m so tired of the “hard” and ready for the “easy”. I know that I’ve just jinked myself with that and I was feeling really lucky that no one I knew personally had died in August.

But I’m tired of hearing complaints from all those around me. I guess I’m just tired after the first 7 months of this year kicking my bottom. I’m tired of the heat now and ready for cooler temps again. I’m just tired.