August 22nd, 2013
It has been awhile. Why? I’m not completely sure. In personal areas of my life I’m good. In professional, I’m ok…I’m working on it. I think a lot of the reason is that I’ve started reading books again and found that I had really missed it. Online books make it so easy (and cheap) that I just haven’t stopped reading. My husband gets a bit peeved because I really do just get into them and don’t hear him when he’ll talk to me and he has to say something twice. So I need to work on that. Before that I learned to crochet and have enjoyed that. We also got a different 3 wheel motorcycle and we’re enjoying that immensely. In fact so much that my house is in dire need of cleaning, but between rides, books and crochet I just don’t seem to mind the dust.
I have missed the people I’ve found thru here and, thankfully, some I connect with on FB so that’s enjoyable. But I need to catch up with other folks too. Funny how we think of each other as friends tho most we’ve never met.
My granddaughter is BEYOND adorable. She is almost 3 and we’re so blessed to have her around. She’s a handful, terribly independent, but that just makes me love her more. My daughter and her husband seem happy. My daughter has a few health problems but hopefully those will work out. My mom is still declining and we make and effort to see her at least a couple of times a month. I know that I’ve shut down a part of my brain so that I can accept her decline. That’s very much my nature and what I learned at a young age about death. But she’s in pain, emotionally and physically, so I hate that for her. It must be so difficult to not be able to do what you want to do anymore and to know that, in not such a short time, you will be gone.
I still love my husband, although he’s still a stubborn fool at times. I’ve tried to reason with him over his family issues, but he’s too stubborn (and prideful) to see where I’m coming from, so he will have to figure it all out for himself. I hope it works out in a good way for him.
February 19th, 2013
Why is it I only get on her to say how fast time is going and that I’m really busy? It’s true, but also sad that is all I can find to say. I really like my job, but all the weekend work is just getting harder. I still enjoy it, but I worry that I’m missing out on things.
My mom’s health is really in decline. I can see it and I think it will just move faster. We’ve known it’s coming but it puts your own life in perspective. I always thought she worked way too hard and now I wonder if I’m not doing the same thing. But then what can you do? A person has to be able to pay their bills….
January 25th, 2013
I can’t believe how fast January has flown. I’m actually feeling better and I hope it continues. Who knew hormone replacement therapy could be so effective! It has helped my attitude immensely. Work is still work and not as good as I would like, but I’m busy and that gives me hope I’ll keep employed. And I’m thankful to have work. The recession has been as bad here as in other places, but I can still see it with some friends that have lost jobs and I’m trying my best to not have that happen.
I’ve started actually reading books again (digitally) and it’s consuming me. I forgot how much I love to read and I have to make myself stop and do something else.
But what I wanted to say is that life feels good right now. I’m happy.
January 4th, 2013
I’ve had a lovely holiday break which would have been better if I hadn’t had a virus for the past 2 weeks. But I’m glad it’s going away even if I do have to go to work next week. Work! I’m going back to some difficulties that have to be solved so I’m not looking forward to THAT. But work is always like that so I should be used to be for sure.
I did enjoy seeing my granddaughter some over the break. She’s so cute, but so typical a 2 year old. We’ve been so blessed that she arrived in our lives. I need to post a photo soon as she’s just gorgeous (or I could be biased).
January 1st, 2013
I’m so happy for 2013 to arrive. I’m just sitting here waiting for midnight. 2012 kicked my butt and I’m hopeful that 2013 will be kinder. There were definitely good things in 2012. Playing with my grand daughter, a better relationship with my husband, but there was a lot of yuck and I’m ready for that to be behind me. I know that the stroke of midnight won’t magically change things and guarantee a good year, but I’m ready to try.
December 21st, 2012
Time to start 2 lovely weeks of vacation. Several days courtesy of working for a school and a few more just for myself! This is about the time last year that things started falling apart so I’m hopeful that it’s been wrapped up with the Mayans “April Fools” Day and life will proceed quietly. I long for quietly these days.
Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas!
December 11th, 2012
Are you ready for Christmas? I just about am since one half of the family is celebrating this SUNDAY! Isn’t that a bit crazy? But I decided it will be nice to not have things crowded all together.
My granddaughter got to spend the weekend with us and it was fun. My husband was a bit on edge by the end because a 2 year old is always on the move! But she’s pretty typical and so much fun that I didn’t mind the mini-outbursts she had when not getting her way. They were few and she’s still so darn cute that they just don’t bother me. We’ll see how that changes if they continue as she gets older.
She has such a great personality and a laugh that you can’t help but love. We are so blessed she came to our lives.
November 10th, 2012
to get me to get back on the wagon for exercising and losing weight. I hate to admit it, but my pants split! NOW it was at a seam and in a weird place, but I know I’ve gained a few pounds so I’m taking it as a sign!
October 1st, 2012
This is my birthday month and it’s a “landmark” birthday. Given the year that it has been I shouldn’t be surprised at the way it’s all going. Typically my girlfriends and I have celebrated everyone’s 50th (Wow! 50! Old!) birthday with a great destination party. Unfortunately two of the friends have had some downturns and can’t afford that. Ok…I’m not selfish (for the most part) but then my mom planned a party for me and they can’t come to that either due to prior committments and my mom lives out of town and she is having it at her house due to her health. Add to the month that it’s crazy at work….I have 14 events by the time November 5 rolls around and with 14 events and only 32 days to work them you can see where I’m using all my skills and talents to make it look effortless (which, as an aside, I get tired of doing because then people think it IS effortless which it is not).
Fine. I’ve never cared for my birthday anyway!
What a weird year this has been so far.
September 15th, 2012
August gave me a break…but September has brought the loss of a cousin to a stroke. She was just 55. She had a difficult life starting with being born with a heart defect, so perhaps 55 was a blessing to her. All in the perspective.