I’m going to my aunt’s funeral today. I really thought I’d get thru May…
Settling down (knock on wood)
May 3rd, 2012
Life seems to be settling down finally. Work is work and I’m making the best of it. It’s what you should/have to do so that you can be happy. I’ve remembered what fluffy witches are (and that they are sometimes men) and am just moving on.
Got a good report at the dentist who said I had great teeth and fabulous hair (just had it done the night before!) so how can you have a bad end of the day with that?
My poor daughter is still really suffering with her migraines and I wish they could figure them out.
So, with that, I’ll leave you a photo of my fabulous hair and teeth! Also, I took this while sitting in traffic, not moving due to an accident ahead. Gotta find something to do when just waiting…
On to another…
April 19th, 2012
Funeral that is. It’s the 4th one since January. I’d suggest you not know me because it’s not looking good these days.
I’m just worn down. I’m trying to find some bright spots, and I do, but on the day to day it’s just wearing. I don’t know if it’s because it’s a big birthday year for me or a big wedding anniversary year for me but the picture just isn’t good right now. So I probably just need an attitude adjustment because it’s all just numbers and I hate math so I just shouldn’t pay any attention to numbers.
I can do this
April 2nd, 2012
What a start to a year. Ok, it’s 4 months in, but it’s been a tough start. My husband’s grandmother did pass away last week and tho it is sad it was for the best as she just didn’t have quality of life. My MIL got out of the hospital and is gaining some strength back. My mother isn’t doing so well, but she’s pretty stubborn (guess where I got it?). My husband and daughter are starting to feel better after the tough start to this year which means I don’t have to cringe everytime a phone rings wondering what next. I was hopeful things would start to get back to normal and then today I have my evaluation at work. Apparently, my boss thinks I’ve lacked focus these past couple of months. Why? Because I forgot to one small (very small) detail for an event. One that most would not notice, and in the grand scheme of things meant nothing to the success of the event. But he jumped on it and it was a big part of my evaluation. THAT and he doesn’t really like me to have opinions AT ALL. He just wants me to sit at meetings and keep my mouth shut. Which I can do, but it’s such a change from my previous boss who encouraged my opinions and valued them. Of course he got fired so that should be a lesson to me huh?
It’s just so hard to not feel valued, especially when I just have 3 years to be eligible for retirement (tho I can’t take it as I’ll still need to work) and need to stay in this job. He did say, during the evaluation, that the faculty value me and I’m great at the MAJOR part of my job so that is why he didn’t give me a lower point scale than last year. Gave me the benefit of the doubt that I’d gain my focus back now that my “personal life is back on track” (I hope he never has to put a loved one in hospice without a feeding tube, etc….).
So…1) keep mouth shut, 2) put EVERYTHING that is needed for events on your calendar (no matter how stupid it looks) so you don’t forget to add a guest book to a table. I can do this. I can be meek and just a worker bee. It’s just a job, one that I need, but just a job and I can do it.
Practicality sometimes wins…
March 22nd, 2012
So I gave in to the waves and I don’t think it looks very good. However, it takes 3 minutes to dry with a diffuser so that gives it some points….(oh and one friend already said…”I’ll have to think about it”…)
Karma
March 15th, 2012
Ok, I must have made Karma mad with that last post because she keeps throwing it at me. This must mean that I’m strong enough to handle the pressure. I will come out at the other side stronger. I AM able to do this.
I really needed to keep that extra hour of sleep
March 13th, 2012
Starting another day. Hoping for a better one, but according to the two phone calls and emails I have already had (not even 6:30 am) it’s not shaping up well. I’m getting tired of…well just tired.
Oh what a day
March 12th, 2012
I’m so glad I’m finally home. I’m not looking forward to another day of work tomorrow. I’m beginning to think it’s me…
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